AAA: At the speed of light...she is joyfully 1

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

At the speed of light...she is joyfully 1

May 18, 2013

Throughout the day, I had moments of reflection.

Reflecting back to what I thought about the day she was born.

May 18, 2012

As I sat in the glow of the sunlit window, a purring tiny butterball of skin, sniffles and softness beside me. I breathe in, congratulating myself on doing the hardest thing any human can go through and the fact that I lived through it. Beating the odds for the 5th time. Lucky. I let my eyelids open and close, quietly and slowly and listened as muffled voices and joyful conversations happen downstairs. Peace. Content. Preparation period before the crying and exhaustion set in. Completely worn out but ready to run a marathon with the hormones battling around inside me.

I had planned on going to a church rummage sale and it is anticipated every year...alas, I went into labor the night before. I was seriously considering going anyway since she would most definitely sleep the whole time I would be gone but we, as women, believe that we are more capable than we really are. We are so overcome with exhaustion and bliss that the endorphins make you believe you can pick right up on normal life. That is a big fat lie. In reality, your body has just created a small universe and we NEED to sit down and do nothing but stare at our tiny milky ways. So, being the wise, mother of 5 that I was, sat right down and let reality take over.

back to May 18, 2013...

As I walked up the steps of the Presbyterian Church's annual garage sale, I was overcome with a wave of utter disbelief. I was here, a year later, at the very rummage sale I had to miss. It took me to a tiny happy place where the wind whispers in the trees, the sun always shines and where babies are minutes new. It was my right of passage. I had made it through the year and she is thriving! I am thriving! Babies are magical.

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Her day. My 5th child to turn 1.

Means low maintenance.