Since many of you have already heard by now, I thought I might as well post the news here so all can be updated. Rob and I miscarried our baby this week. You were pregnant? I know, we hadn't told anyone but our dentist so that he wouldn't do x-rays. I was only 8 weeks along and due in December (an eternity away) but things didn't go well this past week and I have found out that I have lost the baby. I am not so much emotional hurt as physically since it is painful to miscarry naturally but today was pretty emotional since everything just came to a head.
Most of all I am just frustrated because of the losing process but as far as another child, I know it will happen so I can mentally handle it. I was excited to be pregnant at the same time as my sister Katelyn but it wasn't meant to be. Luckily, I went through this miscarriage process with our first pregnancy and so I am well aware of the process. I guess I thought I was done with that one but aparently, I need to go through it again to learn a little compassion and sympathy for others. Not to mention humility...things are not in my control all the time. Bummer.
The things that have gotten me through all this are my wonderful husband, my wonderful friends in the Rock Creek Ward and interestingly enough, my children. I might have lost this pregnancy but I still have them and that is a great comfort to me.
(The picture is way back when Rob and I were first dating. Just posted it to remind myself at how far we have come and how richly we have been blessed.)
2 comments:
Hey Rachel,
I've just been secretly reading your blog but thought you could use a *hug* and sorry for the news from down in Medford. Your dad spoke in church a few weeks ago and shared that you guys are doing well, he also gave a wonderful talk! The ward is quiet without you, I'm sure your new ward is enjoying your family. Sorry for your loss, Jeri Hazelton
I'm sorry your loss. It's been my personal experence that it can some times take longer than we know to get over the loss of a child, even if they haven't been born. When ever my due dates would get closer, I would naturally start thinking about how things might have been and it's always been hard. Even though the gospel gives all the answers in the world, the emotional aspect of things can still be hard to deal with. We all know the Lord's in charge, but we sure love the special blessings that He gives us, like having children. Take it easy for a while and take good care of yourself. I hope you guys will be blessed with another sweet little one soon. Love ya!
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